sleep ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

it's 5.36 am now... i'm still awake.. doing CTR notes.. i'll just write down everything that's important and tmr onwards will start to memorize... pray for me ya!!!! wish me good luck in the final!!!

first time???

my brother wnt to australia yesterday evening... he won a tix to the MTV award... o he will be there for 5 days 4 nights... he allow me to use his laptop.. ahhahaha.. tha'ts why i can go online.. my dad is in air-port now.. going to china.. work.... my uncle is going to london next week.. everyone is leaving malaysia!! hahah...



yesterday i do my notes for CTR till 4 something.. morning.. during the revision... i saw mosquito so i use the electrical racket to hit it.. when the racket hit the window.. my alarm ring!!!! the house alarm i mean.. so loud!!!!!!! damn!!! i off it immediately... then i lie down on the staircase coz it scare me!!! i got no energy to stand up for 5 mins.. then my hand keep shaking for 10 mins... i can't hold anything and write... first time... last time... presentation even i'm scare but still i can stand up and walk...

i got a terrible dream after that..i sweat alot when i woke up...
i forgot hw it start,.. the only thing i remember is i'm pregnant!!! 4 motnhs... my tummy is big.. round...hard... when i touch it.. i can feel the heart beat!!! i keep telling my mum that i din do anything wrong and I'm still a virgin!!! no one trust me coz i'm pregnant!!! i dunno how it happen.. i keep crying and ask myself... how can this happen?? is it a ghost inside?? then i tell my mum i dun wan this baby.. i'm only 19.. bla bla bla... keep crying... then my cousin said if u dun wan the baby.. giv him to me.. but i keep thinking that how am i suppose to go to coll like this? with a big tummy... it's really scary!!!!! now when i touch my tummy.. i feel so scary.. i scare later really got heart beat!!! hahahahhahahhahah... now when i recall my dream.. it's funny but in my dream.. it's so real!! i'm nervous.. dunno what To do.. now i know why so many ppl kill...dump their baby... u really won't know what to do when u;re pregnant... especially when u're young!!!!! haih~~~

shit

just get our CTR marks.. u know what ms nicole said to me??? " u get 49... u need to get 26% or 56/100 in your final to pass.. u need to work really hard or else u will fail..." she said FAIL!!!!!!!!! aiyo!!!!!!! i tried to study ok?? but i got prob memorizing all the stupid theories!!!!!!! i dun remember any theories!!!!! dun like dun like!!!!! i thin the whole weekend is for CTR... and also mon - tues... then only start on my ICC!!!! marketing i think ok la.. will pass but dunno can get A or not... why la!!!!!

ICG??

I screwed my ICG assignment 2… only get 8%.... suppose to be 13% but late submission… so minus 5%... 13% is not good and I kena minus 5% somemore… feel like crying now… last assignment I get 14%/15%.... this one I get 8%/20%........ my god!!!!!!!!!!!!! Luckily din fail if not I’m going to kill myself…. This is the only subject that i got confidence to get A!!! SHIT!!!!!!! Why do I let this happen?? In final… I must get at least 28% over 40%.... at least…. I must get better than that!! Must get an A in this subject!@!!!! i put efforts on this stupid assignment!!! Started to hate this illustrator!! Hahhaah… okla… only hate tracing…. After I get my comp.. I will practice my tracing everyday!!! Trace all the pic that I’ve got… ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH….everyone is better than me!! Envy!!! I think I’m the only one cry when I get my marks…. Fine!!!!!!! Yesterday when I read horoscope… they said ‘ dun expect too much or u will feel disappointed! I won’t expect anymore!!! I will try my best to do it!!! I want an A!! not only one… but I aim for my ICC and Marketing too…

Yesterday… when we plan to sleep… I was looking for my digi shirt that I get from the dancing event in TCSJ…. I dunno where is it!!! Suddenly… all the light goes off and it’s dark!!! I got phobia on darkness – nyctophobia… i just realize that 2 years ago… anyway I cannot see anything and trying to get my phone on the bed… I can’t look for it and I’m nervous!!! So I went out to look for my mum…she's wearing a white shirt and walk out from her room... i got shocked when i saw a white shirt women outside my door.... shit~~ then i went down to check what happen...i called my bro... my mum called my dad...and my dad asked his friend to come.. from cheras!! he's our saviour k? love him... hahahahhahaaa

it's so hot and silence... luckily my phone got songs or else i'll be dying there... anyway it's fix and we slept at 2 soemthing.... when i woke up at 6.10am.. i feel tired and lazy to go for CTR so i told my mum... 9am only go to coll... i skiped CTR!!! again!!! hahahaah.. anyway last class and she doesn't take attentance... i will go for tmr revision class...

went to watson sales in MPH.... got lots of sample and plan to buy some juice?? it's to burn ur fat into energy when u exercise... i can use it b4 i dance... yeah.. normally they sell it at RM90+ and now they sell it at RM46... dun care la... whack only since i din spend lots in coll now...


CTR revision starts!!!!!!!!!

prada i won!!!!

pradaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! i got 21060 in the santa game!!!!!!! finally better than ur 18k somethng!! hahahahhahahhah

horoscope for today~~

There is a great satisfaction to be had in fulfilling mundane responsibilities with enthusiasm. So the next time you're facing an array of boring errands or tedious commitments, take a deep breath -- and turn your annoyance into determination. Even if you're just going to pick up your dry cleaning, for instance, use correct change and give the person behind the counter your warmest smile. These tasks can be enjoyable if you let them.



smile smile and laugh!!!!!!!!!

lalalal

now in media hub... going to library in 5mins... must study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

media hub again

maan.... what do u mean by the word is big and what make ur eyes bigger??? tak faham la lady... anyway in this mac comp.. i can't change the font...size.. colour.. only can upload pic....


now in media hub with danial... pet is sick so she's not coming.... girl... make sure u take care... final coming....

hope can memorize all marketing notes....

now in media hub

doing marketing revision...

watching BBT in youtube...

while youtube buffering... listen to nirvana smells like teens spirits...

feel like sleeping..

still can do revision at night coz tmr got no class....

schedule for revision...

mon and tues --- marketing

wed and thurs --- CTR

fri till sun --- ICG (home) hopefully can get my comp this week

next week

mon and tues --- IMMW

Thurs and fri -- ICC

Sat and Sun -- go through everything...but focus on ICC

weekend

fri 20/04/07

- went to summit with sara...pet and jill...
- ate tomp yam fried rice...very nice...
- watch wild hogs... super nice!!! really worth watching it... nice nice nice!!!!!
- went sushi king...
- my grandfather came... laugh alot
- he send pet to coll and me to tcsj... i slept in the car... dunno what happen...
- suppose to meet vernon in mc d... bought sprite... mandy told me 6pm... but when i called them.. all still bathing in their house...
- hv to walk to mph to meet mandy and i spilled the stupid sprite on my jacket...
- keep dropping my files when i wanted to answer the phone...T_T
- when i reached inti coll... going to reach taylor's... vernon said he's in mc D..T_T
- finally reach tcsj but hv to go a big round coz the malay women refuse to let me use the staircase...
- met mandy.... haih~~~ finally...
- went in to mph waiting for the performance/competition to start....
- chat with siong wai and jin wai....
- saw fellest... one of the judges...
- stupid competition starts at 7.30pm...
- performance was ok... i dun like the champion... i prefer another group.... dunno their name,.. i like their smillle. hhaahaaa
- chin maan.,..raymond...fellest...zack...sharlin...and nicholai i think ... performed...
- went to mc donald to hv dinner/supper....
- DUN LIKE CATS DUN LIKE DUN LIKE!!!! IF U ALL ARE MY FRENDS!!! KEEP THE STUPID AWAY FROM ME`!!! I WALK AWAY FROM THEM COZ I DUN WAN TO HURT THEM... IF THEY COME NEAR ME... I WILL FREAK OUT AND KICK THEM!!! I DUN WAN THIS TO HAPPEN SO I WALKED AWAY FROM THEM!!! IF U ALL WAN TO BE KIND TO IT... THEN DUN BLAME ME IF I GO TO NEXT TABLE AND EAT ALONE!!!!!! I RATHER EAT ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NOT THAT I TRYING TO ACT.... I KNOW I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT HATE CATS BUT WHAT CAN I DO?????????????????????????????????????????????????
- went home...and sleep....

sat....

- slept till 5pm... scary @_@
- mum prepared steamboat... dunno why... but i had fun when i eating it... after that...
- cirit birit for 5 times...

sun...

- try to do revision but failed coz the tv is infront of me..
- listen to w-inds songs!!!
- watch tv tv tv tv
- dinner...
- listen to w-inds songs and sleep....

PET

RAMON - good in singing...rapping...falling down...hv no sense of balance just like me.....good in catching fishes...

VAANEE - turtle version of vaanan... like to jump up and down... very stupid...have to eat in the water...hv no idea what its thinking... dun touch his head or he will hide under the shell... hahahha

HAMMY - a wonderful hamster.... if u click lots of times... he will jump up and down... ahhahahh...SPECIAL HAMSTER THAT EAT STRAWBERRIES

ARGHHH WOOO - awesome!!! the best wolf... better than pradeep's one... hahahahhah....

*****

***** waiting for pet to finish her work thne we can go and print our work and merdeka!!*****

***** jaja is asking alvin to open his nose ****

***** marie screaming at her phone - stop!! stop ringing- *****

***** miss genting *****

***** hope i can do better later in my breakdance class *****

***** hope we continue our windmill today*****

***** marie wanted to eat curry puff now*****

***** jaja and marie going home*****

***** hope to drink honey dew shake now *****

***** i wan to watch stomp the yard *****

***** skiped CTR today bcoz og icg (proud to say) hahahahhha*****

***** dunno wat to write but if i dun write anything then i'll be boring but if i continue writing then i got no idea to write*****

this is possums guest blogging for Christy ...

possum is awesomely awesome ..
possum is the shiznitz ..
alvin says hi to everyone
chee hang .. is hungry
alvin's say chee hang is an asshole ..
chee hang said the whole of Malaysia is waiting for Alvin to have lunch
Fareeza and marie just walked in ..
chee hang just throw a tissue at me
possum is hungry ..
Possum wans to sleep

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tues

do icg till 6.... went home...eat...watch tv and sleep

wednesday

do icg from 10 - 6pm... went home... eat kfc!!! watch tv nd sleep...

thurs

done icg... finally!!!! now looking at sara... she's so sad when she see the real ' dumplings' poor little girl.... heart broken!!!
hahahahhahahah

anyway hope everyone can feed my new pet... ramon and vaanee(vaanan la tu) hahahahahhahaaah feed them...

present

love u guys!!!


present that i received


a necklace frm secondary sch... a shirt frm mandy and others...4 pairs of earrings from ryan and mandy...perfume from sabrina... a card from all but written by su ying!!! thanks !!!!

birthday!!

from top left
siong wai...me...mandy
down - vernon...ying...boy...


jin wai join us!!



a card that makes me cried!!! hahahahhaahhahahahha


i'm surprise!!!! hahahhah


mandy stopping everyone from singing birthday song!!!!


happy!!!


can i cut the cake now!!!!


yeah!!!


half of the cake gone!!!!


my dearest sisters!!! bee lee!!! although u are not here but still i love u!!!


presennt!!!!!


the beautiful sexy shirt


ryan explaining the ear rings... glowing box##


all the ear ring so nice!!

pic pic pic

i was suppose to stand nicely~~~~


but they push me down!!!!!


mei yee...li....me...


ching poh...me....


wei jzet and jie wen...


thanks for the necklace


i miss u guys!!!

pictures!!!

karaoke time!!!!

I had a wonderful birthday!!!

14/04/2007

I went up to gneting!!!!! Fav place!!!! Then I meet sabrina…vernon…jin wai and ah boy… we planned to go for the songkran festival but the guys are late so only left 1 and half hour… we changed our plan to karaoke… okla… I change the plan to karaoke… hahahaha… we sang a lot of song and scream… linkin park… blue…akon and lots more… basically is english and guys song coz the guys can’t sing girls song… hahahaa…. We had fun there… and I went to a concert at 8… ronald cheng and edmund leong’s concert… their songs is nice la…. But all sentimental so I nearly fall asleep… hahaha…

My secondary schoolmates are up…so I meet them at 10.30pm…. then we dunno where to go so we went to mcdonald… we chit chat and tease each other till 11.30…. from there we walk to first world bcoz they said they are tired and wan to go home… when we reached first world… they wanted to buy me slice of cake… actuallly they planned this last min so they said they didn’t prepared anything to celebrate… after we bough a small slice of tiramisu…. We walk to timmes square(genting)… my frens are so cute… they went to ask everyone whether they got lighther… finally the security have lighther and they just sing me birthday song in the middle of times sqaure coz we got no time go other place…. Ahahahah… I felt so touch and happy but when I look around… everyone is looking at us.,.. ahhahaa… they are foreigners actually record us…. Hahaha… they gave me a necklace and ah jing!! He gave me a chewing gum…. He said the chewing gum is the best among all… stupiak!! Anywhere I really love u all so much and hope to see u all always!!! Keep in touch my dear frens!!!

15/04/2007

since we can’t go for songkran festival yesterday so we plan to go today at 10am… actually I woke up at 7 something after mandy called me… then every hour I received msg from al the sweet ppl… my dear frens said they will call me when they are ready to go for songkran… unfortunately…. I waited till 12 and I planned o go breakfast with my mum… then I took bus down to kl… I smsed them to inform them that I’m gong down to kl… but no one replied me… damn sad… I meet mandy in pyramid at 5…. Ryan was ding his hair… then we chit chat and mandy trying to said that the rest is full so we hv to wait for 10 mins… we walked around in pyramid… after someone called.. she said got place for us now….

So we went there and she blindfolded me… when I walked in… I heard some gys talking… then I shouted… “ I heard vernon’s voice” mandy quickly cme to me and said it’s an indian guy la.. other customer… thank god she blindfolded me coz it’s so embarassing… hahhaha…. Then when I sit down… she asked me to close my eyes… when I open!! I SAW ALL MY BEST FRIENDS ARE THERE!!!! ALL!!! Left belle la but most of them!!!!! Jin wai… siong wai…. Ah boy…vernon…su ying and mandy ryan… I actually feel surprise and I dunno wat to say… after I sit down for a while.. I cried!!!! I dunno why… I feel so touched.. then I started to scold each of them…
siong wai – u said u;re in the camp… stupid la u!!!
su ying and ah boy - I went to look for u also u din say anything and dun wan to wish me!!
Vernon and jin wai – songkran at 10!!! Din call me and I smsed u all also dun wan to replied!!!

I was scolding them when I’m crying… u know me rght… cry and laugh at the same time… so funny… hahaha… we chit chat and tease mandy during dinner..then mandy said got another surprise… while we are talking about it.. siong wai “ oh the cake right?” mandy and other stare at him and speeceless… I pretent I didn’t know.. hahahh… when the cakes come I stil act surprise and happy k? hahha mandy bought me a shirt…. Sleeveless… very nice but everyone know I dun wear sleevless.. so she purposely bought it… BLEK!!! Then ryan gave me ear rings… this guy here is so sweet that all the earrings he actually make it himself!! 4 pairs of it… there are crystal which brings me luck… there are ear rings that wish me to find someone tat can open my heart(find a bf la) hahaha… earrings that are special and u can’t find it anywhere else… sea green coloour.. then the last one also a special ear rings that u cannot find anywhere else and only I got it!!! Ahhahahahahah so sweet!!! Mandy u are so lucky to have him la… haha… su ying they all gave me a card… all this organized by mandy1!! So ryan are lucky to have u also… u 2 are so sweet!!!! thanks


after dinner we went to vernon and ah boy’s apartment… so nice!!! Better than my room…. My god… we need to stay there at least once a month… hahha… can go swimming there also… ahhahahha… then I tried on the shirt that mandy gave…. Nice la… I need to diet and slim down then only can wear that sexy shirt!! Ahhaahhaha

I went home at 9 something…. All my heng dai zhi mui… u all are the best in the world… no one can replace u all in my heart and I love u all very very very much!!!! MANDY I LOVE U!!! RYAN I LOVE U!!! SU YING I LOVE U!!! VERNON I LOVE U!! AH BOY I LOVE U!!! SIONG WAI I LOVE U!!! JIN WAI I LOVE U!!! BEE LEE!! ALTHOUGH U ARE NOT HERE BUT STILL I LOVE U VERY MUCH!!!!!!! LOVE U LOVE U!!!!!! u all are the best!! And I know the food there are expensive!!! I saw the bill… RM273.65!!!! this surprise me a lot and I feel like crying when I see them counting in the room… so expensive… and the cake… and the shirt,.. and the ear rings… and the card!! I promised u all I will save money and make all ur birthday a surprise!!! Hahahha

Love u all so much!!!! Muakz!!!!!!!!!

Wishes

– hope the ppl that love me and the ppl that I love stay happy… healthy… stay beside me!!
– Hope I can improve in studies and breakdance
– Secret ahahah



Picture will update later…

sweet people~~!!!!

B4 I say anything…. I wanted to thank all the ppl that wish me happy birthday!!!


Mandy
Su Ying
Siong Wai
Ray
Vernon
Jin Wai
Ryan
Bee Lee
Mei Yee
Eng Chee
Candy
Sabrina
Raymond Yong
Jey Yoke
Ivy
Shu Ming
Wei Jzet
Jie Wen
Sara
Fui Sean
Mameko
Yuvi
Jill
Yi Ling
Ching Poh
Jing
Chee Leng
Jiayi
Yoke Ling
017-673****
Kopi
Mun Chieng
Dong Hai
Kelvin
Marie
Jaja
Brother
Yen
Cheryl Steph
X’plosion Vivian
X’plosion
Hilary
Pet
sheaumun
Kam
daniel
danial
vaanan
kar chun


Thanks for being so sweeet to remember my brithday!!!!!!!

the first battle in my life

for those who are not b-boy/b-girl... battle is like 2 teams compete...1 by 1 will come out to dance then someone will challenge...something like that la.. aiyo.. when maxx told me there's a battle today... i goes blank... i'm so tired.. and i got no energy.. battle???? shit... then he gave us time to mark on our steps... i dunno how to freeze.. i mean all my freeze hv to start from lying down on the floor then slowly goes up and till now i only know shoulder freeze... still dunno how to hand stand and chair freeze... i got prob to go to 6 steps from top rock(izzit correct?) i got prob dancing alone.... aiyo.... it's like another presentation for me... no diff...when we separate into 2 groups.. battle time!!! deon or leon(not sure)..nicholai and another guy dunno from where sitting down there and wathc us.. i feel so stress... when it's my turn for the first time.. i goes blank.. i dunno what ot do.. then when i think of something.. suddenly the music ends,... then start another music.. then i goes blank again.... 2nd time i just do some top rock then 6/4/3 steps... i got prob posing too... i dunno how to look confidence and pose!!! for the 3rd round... i dun remember what idd i do but last thing is roll back stand up.. that's the only thing i know la...... haih~~~ then maxx gave comments on each of us.. he said my full walk(correct??) is ok but need to practice top rock.. and need to learn how to look at the mirror...not the floor.. but i used to it.. aiyo... then he tells us about 13 may they got competition or concert in times square(i hope it's not wrong) quite confuse.. he said he will just pull any of us and go up to the stage battle... then he pointed at me and esther.. i will die ok?? i will just faint on the stage.. dun be so cruel to me pls...i can't even present in front of my classmates.. i can't dance infront of 8 persons in class... how can i battle with someone i dunno and in public.. crazy ar??? will die ok??? die die die!! i dun think i'll be going there... hahah.. if i go then i'll try to wear skirt.. so that i dun hv to dance.. he really scares me...

anyway the conclusion for today is.. i really love breakdance and hope to learn more bout it.. i would like to battle if i can dance well... not now..so next time i hope i can battle and also present infront of ppl with confidence!!!!!!

10/04/2007

I dun remember what happen in the morning but we celebrated marie’s birthday in the afternoon…… in waffle world!!!!! It’s so good… 16 of us went there… and the best thing is we all tried diff food so I can try everything there… it’s so niceeeeeee!!!! Shud go there more often… we played and screamed and had fun there… we joined 4 tables…. Anyway we had fun la… yesterday I talked a lot to the “anak syaitan”(according to jaja) ahhaha… he is damn funny!!! The way he talks and the way he scold bad words in Chinese.. he is so cute la.. ahhahhahah… but evil…hahhah…. Anyway he stays in kota kemuning~~~!!!! After half year I move there… finally I found someone live in a same place with me!~~ I’m not there alone.. ahahahah…. Usually ppl dun even know wher is kota kumuning…. Then I dun remember anything happen anymore…. My stupid computer not working!!! I got so many things to talk about yesterday but I hv to come to coll to blog.. then I dun rmember anything now… stupid comp!!!!!!!!

11/04/2007

We got no class today but I came to coll to online and group discussion… stress stress stress bout the stupid CTR!!! Let me complain about this la.. since u all complain bout ICG so I complain bout CTR!!!! This is a stupid subject k? for u all that not from mass comm… CTR is Communication Theory and Research.. from the name u would know it’s boring!!! I dun care bout theory I dun like research!!! Our assignment is about social revolution in Europe and why china dun hv… something lke that… DO WE HAVE TO KNOW WHY CHINA GOT NO SOCIAL REVOLUTION!!! WHY DO WE HV TO KNOW BOUT HISTORY!!! EVEN WE FOUND OUT WHY… WE CAN[T CHANGE IT!!! WHY DO WE HV TO KNOW THE HISTORY OF PRINTING IN CHINA!!! NOW WE GOT PRINTER AND WE DUN HV TO KNOW!!!!!!! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!! BLUR BLUR BLUR!!!! DUN LIKE DUN LIKE DUN LIKE DUN LIKE!!!!!

But bcoz of this assignment… I know that su ying.. u are really a smart ass!!! I was complaining to her that I dun understand and dunno what to do… she told me --- I think I know what u wan to look for and what is it about…

How can u know something that I dun even know~~!!! I’m telling u crap and u told me u know.. u did more research than I do in that 1 hour and ask me lots of ques!!! Even my frens are surprise!!! U really a freak~!!!! How can u be so smart!!! I wish u were here!!

Tmr presentation!!! If I die tmr… pls tell mama I love her~~!!!!



12/04/2007

It’s has been a long time I never stay in library until 9pm.. last Sem, I stay in th4e library and goes back with the librarian… I always stay there more than I stay at home… I married to the library.. now I divorced so I just go there once a while… keep in touch la… hahah… yesterday I stay there till 9… my god.. it’s so cold…. Haih~~~ just finish presentation.. I dun wan to say anything now.. bcoz it’s over!!!!!!!!!! Dun care dun care!!! Even if I care… I can’t change anything… so just be happy and worried bout ICG!!! I din do anything till now… but I would love to do it middle of the night and i dun mind facing it for 6 hours or 12 hours... at least the more i trace... the more i see the result... not like CTR and other research... the more i sit infornt of the comp... the more i get confused coz too many info....anyway it's gone.. we have done ICC...Marketing...CTR and IMMW and now lieft ICG final assignment then we are done with all the assignments!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hen ms syireen talks about what shud we major in...i really doubt that... b4 this... i was so sure and confirm that i'm taking advertising... then just now.. she said in taylor's u learn more about advertising management... not advertising creative... and in malaysia... good luck for those that wan to learn advertising creative... aiyo.... then dunno what she said.. we shud go for business or something like that... i dunno how to explain... but it really bothering me... i dunno what to do... i can't change course now.. no money.. no time... will kena from family if i change now... i will stick to it only la... die for advertising!!!!

pasar malam

after my parents pick me up from coll... we went to pasar malam in ss2... i love pasar malam but not in my formal suits and heals... it's wet... haih~~ anyway i got lots of nice food there and it's cheap... hahhahhhah... uncle bob fried chicken is the best fried chicken!!! better than KFC!!! ahahhahah... it's really nice... try it!!! nicest in the world!!! hhaahhha.... anyway all the food there is nice and cheap... my mum wanted to eat the asam laksa... which is full of people!!! so i said i go and buy and u all wait for me in the shop... i waited for 30mins!!!!! it's only 6 people infront of me and a few ppl another side waiting for table... but most of them order more than 3 asam laksa so i waited there for 30 MINS!!!!!!! it's so hot and i'm sweating like hell!!! if not bcoz of my mum i wouldn't stay there longer than 15mins... after i bought it... my mum came and look for me so we met in the middle of pasar malam... she scolded me for waited so long.. she said if it's long then dun wait!!! why wait there!!! i scream at her and say it's bcoz of u saying wanted to eat the asam laksa and i waited there for 30 mins.. u think i wan to stay there??? what's ur prob?? i stay there just to buy this stupid asam laksa for u!!!!!!!! then she smile... == dunnno what's she is thinking... then she take the asam laksa happily... SWT SWT SWT SWT SWT.... then i warn her to finish it.. hahhhaha... after that i bought lots of fruits... i bought watermelon...strawberries...mango and wanted to buy apples but my mum said the apples dun look fresh... it's ok.. i got watermelon!!! strawberries!!! i love fruits!!! fruits is my fav!! but not durian... ahhahah... anyway we spent 2 hours there and we all enjoyed it..my mum and my dad is like those little couple.. lovely but like to argue with each other... tak boleh tahan them..
my mum said to me" i wan to buy fish head so that i can cook some asam fish head... hahhaa ur dad cannot eat!!!"
my dad said " yala can buy asam fish head just that the prob is ur mum dunno how to cook it..."
mum " ur dad jealous that he can't eat it" dad - " ur mum think that genting got no asam fish head"

so for whole day i keep listen to them saying ur dad ur mum ur dad ur mum.. can't they just say he or she or u wan to be romantic can call them ur husbant and wife... weird parents... anyway we jokes and trying to blame each other if we bought some food that's not nice.. hahhhahaha

i enjoyed my time in pasar malam... i love pasar malam!!!!!!!!!!

post post post

sat 07/04/2007

nothing happen in the morning and afternoon.. but at night.. my bro wanted to have dinner with us to celebrate my birthday earlier coz he's not free on my actual birthday... he asked where i want to have dinner and he will bring me and my mum there... i just told him i dun wan chinese, western, indian, malay and thai food coz i'm sick of it... i gave him three choices... korean..japanese and italian food.... then i keep saying that i never ate original korean food b4... so he brought us to sri hartamas - the korean house! oh my god!!! it's so nice!!!!!! NICE NICE NICCE NICE!!!!! we just ordered a beef and pork set.... then the side dishes is actually making us full coz there were 10 side dishes.... soooooooooo niceeeeeeeeeeee.... the beef is really nice... the pork is not that nice but still i enjoed it... maybe it's bcoz of my bro so the food there is so nice,., he seldom spend time with us and that day, he sacrifice his saturday night to have dinner with us!!! it's really nice... then me and my mum planned and look for the next rest that we could eat next time... hahhahha... all the shops look nice!!!! japanese and korean!!! i feel so happy to be in ri hartamas... full of my fav food!!! anyone that wanted to eat korean and japanese food... can consider there... i strongly recomended u all to go there... and it's not really expensive compare to sushi king or whatever other rest... hahahhaahha... had fun joking with my bro and my mum...

sun 08/04/2007

my dad came down coz he on leave again.. now he's coming down every week... think he miss my mum too much.. hahahhahaa... we went for ching ming.... something like u go and visit ur grandparents or something like that... faham faham la... dunno how to explain... it's so hot!!!!!!! i nearly faint ok!!! what kind of weather is it!!!! shit!!! my face is so hot and i feel so dizzyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!! its better to visit grandfather coz the graveyard is big... i mean it's not in a temple...
when we went to the temple to visit my grandma.. the smells kills me... i cried there bcoz of the smoke... dying.. haih~~~ but at least we are done... after that.. we went to have lunch with my cousins and anuty from father side.... there's been a long time to meet them... this is the first time for us to have reunion and all are there... at least all are doing good... then we just went home and i slept from 4 to 7 something... then started to kick the comp for not working... i tried and tried but still the stupid comp refuse to listen to me!!!!!! ARGHHH

today mon 09/04/2007

presentation... i wore skirt... most of them are suprise coz i've never wear skirt to coll.. i feel like kicking ppl but i can't... i feel like runnng and jumping around but i can't... i feel like putting my feets on the chair but i can't... aiyo... so insecure when i walk... hate skirt.. but at least i wear it then my mum won't bising.. hahahah... for ur info.... for those tat wan to know.. i'm
ok with my mum... we talk... we laugh.... we chat... i scolded her for not going to BALI bcoz of me.... aiyo... just for that one day i could just go to someone's house and sleep or ask bro to send me to coll then pick me up... shud have just go!!! aiyo!!! i wan her to go... i wan her to go overseas whenever she can... who knows another tsunami or bomb then no more bali.. so go when u got chance... then she told me she wan to go with my dad on june... fine~~~ romantic... have ur honeymoon there and get me a bro!! hhahahhahahhahahhahhhaah... that's what i told her.. she laugh and i said " if u dun wan baby then use our new product~~ condom!!!!!" hahahahhah for our new assignments...

today my presentation i think it's quite ok compare to ICC.... i tried to look confidence by not letting them to see my hand shaking so i put them behind.. then i try to talk louder... hahhahh... at least it works la... my dearest grandpa and friends told me i look confidence!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!! that's what i wan... eventhough i'm nervous but at least i can tipu them.. hahahahha.... then in the end.. our presentation chart got some prob.. grandpa alll notice that but they din really talk about it... cheryl told us in a good way that she suggest us we can do like this this this...but someone wan us to get malu and in my opinion... i think she do it purposely in a wrong tone to make us feel like dying infront of the class.... haih~~ dun wanna talk bout htat... anyway i really thank everyone that had help us in this assignemnt... i seriously thank u all.. nick that had answer lots of our question and gave us lots of ideas... all the ppl tat do our survey.. thank you very much... the girl in i need house... thank you for telling me so much about condom and that's my first time "meeting" the spike condom... it's cool.. hahahah... thanks to my group members... pet... i know u learned alot... hahahahha... more than me..we both did and learned somehting new bcoz of this assignemnt.. u know i know!!! keep it to ourselve!!! shhhhh.. hahahahhahahahhah

ok... i got nothing to talk about now.. will be continue...


I WAN TO WATCH MR.BEAN THE HOLIDAY AND STOMP THE YARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aries!!!

The Bottom Line

You will help this person most by letting him or her go it alone right now.

In Detail

Someone who has a tendency to make things harder than they should be may ask you for some help today -- and you probably won't have time to give it. Resist the urge to get frustrated or laugh at this person's situation. It's true that you could get yourself out of a similar predicament in no time, but he or she isn't quite as experienced as you. Don't fear that this person will be upset with you for not helping -- by letting him or her go it alone, you're helping more than you know.


hhahhahahhah no one asked for my help and i won't leave them alone!!! hahahah

happy birthday marie!!

presentation

the only thing that i can say is sorry......i seriously felt sorry for my group and myself... there were lots of things happen today... jill didn't bring her pendrive so we need to do the slides last min and we got no time to add in our ad and our logo... map... lots of things... it become incomplete... then i dunno what's wrong with me...when it's my turn to present... i walked out and i just read te first sentence and nick they all giv me a " dun understand" look... then i start to be nervous and i go blank... i seriously dun remember a single word... so the only thing i do is read from the screen coz i dun remember... after i "read" everything... when i get back to my seat.. i dunno why.. my tears just burst out.. i felt like.. it's our one and only assignment... 30%... if failed means failed...then i think alot.. why i do stupid things.. why i can't remember anything... i feel like really sorry for myself... useless... so i cried in the class and sara saw... she is the cutest person in college... her reaction... everything.... u rocks la sara... hahahha... bcoz she need to ask tissue for me so stephy and pet they start to know... hahahah..now i felt so ===== why i cry!!! shud cry at home or in the toilet... uselesss ==

anywayb i meet mandy and ryan today... i planned to walk to mcdonald.,... so ya.. forgot to mention.. i walked to pyramid yesterday from coll and i feel so proud.... so next time i can save RM5 every thurs since i can walk there... but today mcdonald look abit far and i'm lazy to walk so take cab... b4 that i had a good fight with pet... haha... infront of media hub and her cousin... u really funny la pet... had fun fighting with u.. hahaha... even ur cousin tak boleh tahan us... hahahah... anyway... i had fun meeting mandy and ryan... they are still sweet together... very SWEET!!! i feel happy for them... i got so manythings to tell mandy... normally when i'm sad or happy or mad...i will call her... but this time when i'm emo dunoo why i dun wan her to be sad too... so i keep it to myself lo... sorry la mandy... i willtell u next time.... noa mtter happy or sad... thanks ya... keep in touch!!!! miss u !!!

dying

it's 3am now... i'm still awake.. tmr got presentation so i'm so call preparing it.. not going to sleep today... since hav to wake up at 6.30am... haih~~ honestly.. i know most of my group members will read this but still..i felt so stupid and brainless when i had group discussion with u all... pet...ham...danial...jill....joey... all are scholarship and also all As students... i really thank god that i'm lucky to be one of the member but i also feel stupid coz i got very few ideas and they all got smart brain... tat;s the time i feel tat i so left out and STUPID!"!! sara.. i know u said that i'm not stupid but still but work with they all... i really feel that am i in the same sem with they all? why are their thinking so good? haih~~~ i promised u all that i will try my best to present and type the report!! i promised u all!!!! that's why i'm preparing it now... haha... hope i can remember what i'm going to present although it's only a small part... haih~~~

i got new dream after my breakdance... i wan to learn drum... it's so cool... after i listen to nirvana - smells like teens spirit.... it's damn damn dammn nice!!!! cool!!!!! i wan to learn drum!!!!! it's the coolest thing in the world...after breakdance la... hahaahha... i hope i'll know someone that can play drum and teach me for free.. right now my salary will go to my dancing fees... hahah... anyway it's a dream... pray for me.. make sure my dream come true... ok la... bcoz i feel tired so to make me awake.. i come here to blog... i will ome back when i feel sleepy... c ya

horoscope!!!!

The Bottom Line

If you're upset with someone right now, you need to find a way to say so.

In Detail

Keeping a tight lid on your emotions might be an effective way to achieve a cool and collected demeanor, but it's also important to find time to feel your feelings -- and learn from them. If you're very happy or very upset with someone right now, you need to find a way to express those feelings. This person needs to hear the truth -- whether it's good or bad. Shutting down and doing your best imitation of a robot is not going to help you move forward right now.

there's no way i can express my feelings to her ok? can i say i'm sad and mad bout her? it will hurt her.. so i'll just leave it... dee in my heart!!!

for those that asked me "are u ok" everyday!!! i seriously feel touched... jaja... pet...mandy...ying...sara..and others... thanks alot.. i feel much better now...i can talk...laugh..make balloons...walk around... seriously... i'm OK!!! i really feel better.... thanks..

just now in the chinese stall.. we sang birthday song for Alvin the sem 3 guy... then we got this free fruits from the chinese stall uncle... he is so nice... next time when we got no money we shud just sing birthday songs there... hahahhhahahah.... evil.... alvin wore this weird shirt written - play station then an arrow showing down his part... its so weird and funny... hahaha/.. i know he won't read my blog so i can kutuk him here... honestly he is the first sem 3 guy that i noticed coz he's quite noisy and he walks around... and he's the vice president for the music and dance club... the first thought about him is he is so weird... the way he talks... he dun even know my name!!! hahhahha anyway he's quite "nice" ....the way he talks to jaja and sara... it's so funny to see them talk... the way jaja talks about her story... her dreams... jaja u rocks la... hahhha..

anyway now i'm in ilab doing icc discussion so i'll come back later.....

really thanks tp ppl that cares bout me... at least i know i'm not alone... my dearest sister -- ying... u know i alway miss u... i know u miss me too... haha... u are always busy so how to talk to u ar?? wanna complain dy la... long time din meet up... u faster finish ur final then make sure u promised that u will spend tiem with us... u really wan to kena from me dy... chech... hehe.. anyway i really miss u(miss the moment when i tease u) hahhaaha... and i can belanja u sandwich if u come to my coll... so if i go to ur coll then u belanja me in asia cafe k? fair enough... hahahaaa.... i need to return ur camera to u too... so call me when u're free....

to petttttttttttttttttt.... b4 i say anything... wan to share with u all what she wrote to me in friendster....


Posted 3/4/2007
Michikoooooooooooo
dont be sad michikoooooooooo
you know u feel better when you see meeeeeeeeeee
oh michikooooooooo
i see u seeing meeeeeeee
see meeeeeeeeee
see meeeeeeeeee
michiko michiko michiko
rat rat pumpkin
woof woof
meeeeeeeeowwwwwrrrrr
run christy run
or the cat will EAT you
graaaaah graaaaah graaaaaaaah

pet are u trying to make me better or worst by telling me cat will chase me... u crazy girl... suppose to make me happy but too bad i feel scary coz i keep thinking that cat will chase me!!! u really !£%$£%$^^%^&^&*^& u weird la u"!!!! anyway i still thank you for " cheering" me up... although it's not working... haahha

i feel better today... i talks alot... i smile and laugh alot.... from my heart.... so it's not fake... haa... nick really giv me a good morning... the way he fight with miss nicole... the way he present.. the way he discuss with us about the tutorial ques.... the way he argue with miss nicol when she don't allow him to go out for a break.... hahaahahhaa... i had a good laugh... then we discuss about our marketing and went to media hub to do vector art.. and also watching youtube... fun.... haaha... anyway i dun like tracing the possum(sorry sara hahahah) the possum is so hard to trace and so complicated... i shud just ignore it and focus on my assignment... i got no confidence on this final exam and also final assignment... in my photoshop i shud get better marks.. so regret.... haih~~~ anyway tmr morning got no class so will be tracing my photo till midnight... haha.. that's all for now... lollipop which is the show that i mentioned... so nice and funny!!!!!! i can laugh for whole day... they are cute... haahah innocent... love u guys so much...

sara and marie... thanks for making me laugh too... i knw u all miss my smile and voice... i will talk more tmr.. hahaaha.... make sure u all come coz i will bring those balloon poodles for u....

I LOVE ALL OF U THAT CARES BOUT ME!!!!
I LOVE MY COLLEGE GANGS!!!
I LOVE MY ZHI MUI!!!!
MUAKZ!!!!

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to sara, pet, su ying, joey and others that cares bout me...

thanks alot!!! i really dun feeling like talking today.. i feel so hard and so lazy to open my mouth... i think i'll be ok a few more days later... when i try to smile... i got tears.... i hve no idea why... i dunno why i dun wan to go somewhere crowded and i feel noisy.. i think i prefer staying in some places where no ones there and i dun have to talk... haih~~~ i dunno what happen to me...

to jiayi...

thanks alot....i really thanks for ur support and i can promise that whenever u feel sad... call me anytime.. my phone are on for 24 hours...i hope dancing can really help me to release stress...

today after ICC class... i wnt to comp lab to print my notes... i din follow them to mamak or somewhere coz i feel lazy to talk and walk so i'll just stay somewhere alone... usually i hate being lonely... but today it's diff.. i tried to talk but i dunno wat to say... i feel like crying but when i try to do that... i got no feelings... i feel like smiling to my frens but when i smile... i knw it's fake.... sorry.. i din mean to ignore u all... sometimes when i'm too into something.. i cna't hear what u all talking about... i try to get into a conversation but i just stone and dun understand... my brain is not working properly.... hope today i'll get a good dream and tmr willbe a better day...but when i watch tv or youtube.. i can still laugh so i know i'm not tat serious yet... haih~~ whatever la....

my weekend

I suppose to be happy in the weekend but unfortunately something happen… someone again… I’m tired of talking about it and I got no more tears to cry…. Now I got no feelings anymore… no matter how she treats me… no matter what she said… I’ll just stoned and stay in my own world… facing her… reminds me of a phrase! SILENCE IS GOLDEN!!! I’m so tired… got no energy to fight back and explain coz she won’t understand… now I rather stay in coll doing nothing and watch youtube… I dun wan to go home... My comp got virus so I can’t use it… or else I’ll just stay in the comp room…. I’m tired of talking alone… I’m tired of telling her everything and got no reaction… I’m tired to talk… I feel so lazy to open my mouth… I’m tired of having cold war… I’m tired of making her happy while I’m not… I’m really tired and I decided not to tell her anything more… nothing… I’ll stay in college till 4 or 5 then I’ll just go back to room when I get back… last time when we fight… I’m the one who break the war but now I’m tired… so let the war begin…. There were many things happen in the weekends… I lost my little piggie… the thing that u hang on ur phone… I like it so much and I’m feeling weird without it on my phone… I dunno why a simple thing can make my day goes dark… I feel so sad and I got no mood to make my customer happy when i[‘m working… for this weekend… I’m like a balloon maker than a clown… I dun talk to them.. I just smile smile smile… but it’s fake… trying so hard to smile to them but failed so I’ll just keep quiet and make balloons… dunno why right now.. I feel like crying… I think I’m going to be an autism coz I can cry and get mad for no reason… but when the time that I shud cry.. I got no feelings…

I went to an award named Zee Award which is for bollywood star.. I saw shah rukh khan.. saman khan… and others who I dun remember their name and dunno them… it is the most expensive tix that sold in genting… cheapest is RM300 and the most expensive would be RM2000…. My tix is worth RM2000 but I’m still so far from the stage… the seats for this RM2000 tix is actually worth RM130… coz it’s genting so I know all the price for the concert.. usually they only sell RM100-150 for the green seats… but for this award… it’s RM2000…. It’s quite boring coz I dunno the artist and the dance is long… but they are all good in dancing… and saman khan is so handsome!!! He rocks!!!

That’s all I’m going to talk about coz I dun remember anything happen… I’m so lazy to talk about he mass colympics…basically it’s quite ok la… but it’s freaking hot! The weather is really burning my skin!!!!! And I had headache after that… haih~~~~

Going to marketing class now… bye

the one and only hapy moments is when i bought the sandwich from a stall and the uncle remember me and only charge me for RM1.50 while it shud be RM1.90.... thanks ya i promise u i'll go there and buy everyday for my breakfast... it's really nice