normal ^^

it's been a long time since i last write a blog.. maybe because these few weeks.. there are people who listen to me.. who talk to me.. seriously these few weeks.. i'm really blessed.. i met up with my primiary schoolmates.. bcause my classmate getting married.. we witnessed their journey together.. since both are normal friends.. till both like each other... till parent disagree with them.. till they got separated becos the boy was sent to New Zealand.. and now finally they won their parent.. and getting married.. it's like watching a drama. with a happy ending~~ we kept talking about 那些年。那些年我们去过的地方。and met 那些年，一起追过我的男孩。哈哈 i didnt realized there were quite a number of people like me before.. hahaha

after that, i was kinda busy.. maybe i'm trying to keep myself busy.. oh then i went to MOA 2011.. meet the suju oppa again! it's my 8th times.. seriously.. they still touched me.. i'm still in love with them.. i met a new friend from SG.. so i wasn't alone in my zone.. we both had fun.. i purposely arrive the stadium earlier to help out mysj.. but most of them went to fan meeting.. and those who stayed were those whom i'm more awkward with.. she's there.. seriously... for now.. it's obvious that sh's ignoring me.. so i cant think of any reason for me to go near her anymore.. since she doesn't want our friendship.. or maybe she afraid that i'll hurt her or whatever shit.. i just don't care now.. i'm numb.. i am not sad or hurt even though she ignored me... i just got no feeling.. i won't make u annoyed by me again.. cause i'm not gonna go near u anymore.. for now.. i dont mind losing a friend.. it's ok..

before that, i talked to Jess.. we talked about how we both felt when we quit.. we talked about why we quit.. we didn't talk bad about her.. but just expressing our feelings.. i was so sorry for her cause when she quit... nobody was there to listen to her.. i know how she feels.. she admit she was hurt.. i'm sorry.. and i dont have much chance to spend time with her.. hopefully i can get closer to her.. ^_^ she's a really nice friend.. finally someone understands my feeling..

the concert was fun~~ i talked super a lot that day.. even kak fiza said i talk too much.. when she said that, i'm happy ^_^ it means i'm back to normal.. haha finally i talk.. and talk too much.. 3 months ago.. i dont talk and just keep crying.. and want to be alert with everyone.. just like a hedgehog.. i want to have a distance with everyone so they got no chance to hurt me.. and i won't pour out too much feelings..including my friends.. i'm glad i'm back to normal to my friends now.. i'm gonna be a hedgehog to people i meet in the future.. but not my friends ^^