my first rebel

i'm a person that love clubbing last time.. but i can't go often because my mum is alone at home.. she never sleeps until i come home.. even if i'm in the club.. i feel guilty.. so i stop clubbing.. my dad set me curfew before he came down.. i must go home before 11pm.. ok fine.. i obeyed.. i can't drive alone to kl and most of the places.. it's ok i don't drive..

after dad retired.. i thought.. finally it's time for me to go out now.. and i'm 24 years old.. but NO! dad called me home whenever i go out because they got nothing to do at home.. so they can only think where am i.. when will i be home.. 8pm is late too! i almost argued with them when i sent my switzerland friends back to raja chulan.. honestly! without suying i can't drive.. so i can't survive without her? i was mad that time.. after argued for few sentences.. i gave up and go back to the room...

and these few days.. they just can't stop nagging me.. boyfriend.. my mum is worried that i'm single~! and she's disappointed that i got no date on Valentines.. ok fine.. i keep quiet.. then they nag bout me staying at home.. I GO OUT U NAG I STAY AT HOME U NAG@!!!! fine i stay in the room until dinner time since there's renovation anyway..

then mum said that i should have a part time job so i wn't stay at home wasting time while waiting for my full time confirmation.. OK! i went looking for part time and found one day care job.. then when i told them.. they said why waste time on day care... why not focus on full time! WALAO!!!!! i seriously want to kill people!!! especially when mum said " u think it's ok to waste time there then u go for it lo" i exploded! i literally scream back at her and i don't rmb what i said.. but basically i fought back.. and luckily i planned to go out due to renovation.. so i went out immediately..

i don't know where to go and once i got into the car i start crying.. so i drove on the highway... to summit.. then take a u turn back.. and i drove slowly.. after that i went to my fav cafe.. i sat at the corner.. staring at my laptop.. look for some dramas to watch.. ordered cappuccino and pasta.. then i msg bro's gf.. she kept asking me what happen and i start crying in the cafe T_T i tot it wasn't obvious.. i sat there since 4pm.. around 6pm.. the owner gave me a free Mocha.. with a message - Don't cry~~ honestly i was touched!! the mocha tasted really really good! it warmed my heart!

i really wanted to talk to someone.. i look at my contacts.. ironic.. i don't hv anyone to call.. then look at my fb.. 600+ friends.. but none of them i could talk to.. especially i lost them.. and half of my brothers in australia..

my laptop out of batt.. then i used my phone.. then it out of batt.. but luckily i called suying before that.. she came around 9pm.. i told her everything.. then she complains bout her job too.. we talked until the shop closed.. around 10.15pm.. so basically i stayed there for 6 hours? hehehe drank cappuccino, mocha, afagato, peach juice, ice lemon tea..

then i went to studio look for r team and sun jie.. until 11.40pm.. this is my first rebel.. i ran away frm home.. for 9 hours.. talked to brother about all this.. brother said i'm consider ok for my age.. hahahaha

life

CNY is over.. it's already mid of Feb.. lots of things happen.. it's difficult to tell what happened..

i had a good CNY... spent lots of time with family.. especially brother.. i'm really glad and happy to have my family with me.. including all relatives.. i'm really blessed!

house renovating now.. really really noisy and irritating.. free wake up call every morning... and the renovation make all of us in the house hot tempered..

i met DA again in a dance comp.. i didn't know they joined actually.. only 4 of them joined this time.. i have no feeling when i watch them dancing on the stage.. compared to MYSJ event.. i'm glad that i really let go of them already.. and as i said.. if they don't want to talk to me.. i won't talk to them.. no point for me to go near them if they are uncomfortable.. so i didn't talk to them besides CY cause she didn't join the comp.. so we talked..

after the event i walk to R team only.. and congratz P team.. and i heard E called me... the kind maknae.. she was teasing me wearing a short pant.. haha so i suggested to take a pic together.. but i didn't talk to the leader.. she was uncomfortable when i was there.. make me realized that now i am ok to see them face to face bcoz i didn't do anything wrong.. why is she uncomfortable? haha anyway i 见得人，拜得神。

after the event.. went dinner with Geruff.. and movie.. and all of us slept in the movie.. oh besides father and mother.. hahaha had a deep talk with sun jie.. she's a really good gf! my loudou should really faster propose! hahaha