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my tears can't stop dropping right now.. it's really really heart breaking... 

my dad showed me some kind of show just now.. the host went to this place in indonesia which is a place that full of whale hunters.. this place is the only legal place to hunt whales.. they have permit to hunt whales because they will have nothing to eat if they don't kill the whales... 

Lamalera, on the south coast of the island of Lembata, and Lamakera on neighbouring Solor are the last two remaining Indonesian whaling communities. The hunters have religious taboos that ensure that they use every part of the animal. About half of the catch is kept in the village; the rest is traded in local markets using a barter system.

they used simple weapons to kill the whales.. they even have to jump into the sea and fight with the whales.. it's a really dangerous job.. when my dad told me that they hunt whales to survive.. i couldn't understand and felt upset... because whales are getting lesser and lesser... 

but after watching the show.. i felt really sad... seriously.. it's either the people die or the whale die.. if they don't kill the whales.. they will have no food... they don't use money to buy other food... they used the meat to trade other food.. so whale meat is everything to them... but the whales are struggling and you can see blood everywhere once the hunter kill them... the amount of whales are getting lesser now.. in that show, they did not manage to find whales but they get a huge stingray.. however.. it's enough to make me cry.. you see how the stingray struggle.. blood coming out from the body.. it's cruel.. but to the hunters and the people.. it's a joy because that means they got food to eat... 

i'm struggling right now because i couldn't say they should stop killing whales because that's their food and 'money'.... but i also couldn't imagine whales getting killed everyday... it's really really sad! and i don't know why the tears keep dropping.. if i got money.. i'll buy them cows.. goats... chickens... or other things... so that they won't kill whales... 

haih~~~