a good lesson from God

there were lots of things happen in just one week.... although i always cries in college but this is the only day that i cried till i can't talk at all and can't breath.... i had a really hard time talking.. thanks to mandy that was so patient on the phone.. trying to make me calm down... i just can't imagine that i cried till i had gastric after that... at that time... i just wan to get drunk.... weird?? nope.. because i dun wan to face this shit anymore so i wan to get drunk and sleep.... dun hv to face anything... dun hv to do anything... dun hv to face ppl that irritates me.... dun hv to smile to ppl that i'm actually mad of.... i wan tequila...vodka...chivas....black label and others that i dunno.... right now i'm ok.. not that emo anymore... it's really hard for me to act liek there's nothing happen and keep lauighing while i'm actually crying in my heart.... everytime i smile and tried so hard to forget bout it... but things just happen again and again..... i'm tired of cursing ppl.... scolding ppl.... screaming on the phone...it's over now... thank god! i jus take it as a challenge that U gave to me so that next time i'll know what i shud do if i face someone like this again.... i'll just tried to learn from the past and i'll never do the same mistake again...... so i just take this as a lesson....