My Testimonial

this is my first testimonial and i was chosen to share it in cell harvest.. i post it here to share with everyone that read the blog.. it's just my personal life and how i gone through the life before and after becoming Christian.. it's a bit long.. haha but bee lee and su ying.. (of course others too) i hope u will read it fro beginning till the end.. Manndee knew it already.. enjoy!!

Before

i was a christian since young.. i followed my aunt to church because i stayed with her. after i moved to Genting when i was 10, i attended the genting church as well. but at that time, i'm going just for the sake of going because my friend ask me to, and her mum will give me a weird look as if i'm a bad child if i don't go.  so i went just to avoid being asked by the uncles and aunties. i do not understand a word or meaning but everytime during worship, i'll always cry, i don't understand why. one of the uncle said, because God love me. but i still don't understand why. during secondary school, i started to keep my religion as a secret because i don't want people around me to see me as someone holy, and i felt like it's a burden to be a christian, elders in church told me cannot go out late, cannot wear short pants or skirts, cannot do this cannot do tht. so i refuse to tell everyone i'm a christian. i afraid people will say that, eh u christian cannot do this one.. i don't want to destroy the image of christians. unless in situation that couldn't avoid as in Ic or any form, i'll put my religion as christian. weirdly, whenever i have problem, i always pray to Jesus. i only pray to Him no others even though i've change my religion before. 

encounter

until 18 yrs old when i came to KL, i had a water tumor in my stomach, it had been in my body since young but i do not realized it. i thought i was just growing fatter and fatter. the tumor is not dangerous unless it burst. when i found out and went to doctor, it's already 13 CM. the doctor was really surprise that it didn't burst or put me in danger. she was so shock and told me to remove it as soon as possible. what was even more shocking to her was i went to breakdance classes every week and including the day before my medical check up.. i even press it everyday to make it smaller. the doctor said it is kind of miracle that it didn't burst. i still remember before i went into the operation room, i was praying really hard. i never be that sincere in my whole life. i was telling God "please save me, please cure me." and of course He did it. even though the operation went longer than it should be but here i am, He protected me. even a doctor was surprise that it didn't burst, so who else could it be that saved my life? only God. i knew the answer and i was thankful during that moment. however, i didnt attend any church or cells.

Salvation

after a year, i met Shin Yi in my cousin's house and she invited me to CoUZ, at first, i thought since it's all college students, it will be great if i get to meet more ppl from different colleges. 2008 january, i attended the first couz night, and i had fun. the game was fun, the worship songs were upbeat and nice, the pastor was funny so i enjoyed going there. after few months, i joined Sheep united, it started to makes me think that, "it's not boring to worship, it's not boring to listen to the stories in Bible." Worship can be fun. and i accepted Christ once again in mission Trip. after seeing so many people got saved by God and how He changed their life, i felt the reason i attend couz and cell is because of God, not because of other college students. 

Praise

for these two years, there are lots of changes in my life. i'm not afraid to tell other people i'm a christian, i'm not afraid to tell people that i'm not free during friday night because of cell. and i found the meaning of worshiping God, it's not just to sing according to the lyrics but to praise Him on everything he did. He sacrifice himself for someone small and imperfect. he changes my relationship with my family, he changes my thinking on certain issues. before this, i only pray to God when i have problem and blame everything if it didn't come according to my ways. now i tend to be thankful on everything i got and to think that every failure or suffer has a reason, God wanted to make me stronger. we are even closer during Couz Camp, he replied my prayers through different ways and in the end He just wants me to know that he love me. he listens to me. even though i'm not a perfect daughter, He still love me more than anyone else. that is the question in my heart, he confirm and even double confirm with me that He loves me. He sent different people to bring me back to him so that i won't get lost anymore, i thank god that He sent Shin Yi, Ciss, Melody, James to bring me back to Him, i thank God that he answered my prayer and told me he love me through different ways. i thank God that He sent Mellisa to hug me when i requested for a hug. i thank God for answering my prayers even though some of it are weird prayers to show me You are always there to listen to me. besides that, i thank God that He sent awesome people to be my best friends in my life. He knows how important these people are to me and how much they meant to me. 

many people asked me why am i so lucky on this or that, now, my answer is because i got a great Father that arranged everything that is best for me. 

summary of last three months

after a long time, i decided to update my blog finally... lots o things happen in this three months.. my life was busy and i really enjoyed it because i had a good holiday that full of things that i like.. even though i'm not working... too many things to talk about for the last three months

summary of each month

january - the first week suffered from suspected dengue.

really had a hard time.. didn't know i have fever for 6 days.. dizzy and couldnt eat anything.. just feel like sleeping all the time.. even 5 minutes in the car i can fall asleep.. faint in the toilet for the first time in my life before trip to Penang... after that.. finally go to visit hospital.. and no more fever at that time.. but still suspected so i did blood test for 4 days.. even though the doctor said i'm getting better.. but because i have low blood pressure.. so after four days of losing blood... i look like i'm going to die soon.. face look paler and paler.. anyway Thank God i'm fine now.. 

- performed Charity Show in Korea Plaza

even though did some mistakes in the first performance.. but really enjoyed it.. it's fun! 

February - Chinese New Year

- eat eat eat that is how i gained 2.5 KGs in two weeks!!

March - Performance in Matta Fair 2010

on saturday.. PDF!! Progression.. Dawn's Arch and Frequency.. i'm under DA (yes ying i officialy joined them..) representing Super Junior Fans Club...first time dancing this song.. solo.. nervous and happy..invited by Korea Tourism Organization to promote Kpop..

on Sunday, performance with the 2PM fans club... whole day full of Drawing Men.. kind of used to the stage.. not nervous.. even when i did mistakes.. but met coollllll people!! the 4 drawing mens.. their show is called Drawing Show.. if u haven't seen my video.. go to my facebook..

- Start School

- Super Show II

Super Show to be continue in the next post..

Super Show II Live in Malaysia part 1

this will be a very long post because i don't want to lose any details.. when i read back in the future.. i hope this post is detail enough to remind me every single moment..

ok Super Show II is Super Junior's concert.. usually people around me know that i love them very much that i even planned to go Bangkok and Taiwan for their concert.. but because of certain reasons i couldn't go... i was so disappointed but in the end.. they decided to come to Malaysia.. it's like a miracle to me.. even though the members are not complete due to some reasons.. i was really hoping to see them.. they are the first group that i spend money on them.. i watched many concerts in my life but i never pay one cent for it.. they are the first group.. and i bought RM458 rock zone just to see them closer and have more interaction.....

weeks before the concert i was busy preparing for performance and i didn't get a chance to memorize the fan chants and lyrics.. after matta fair's performance, finally have a chance to continue my SUJU's week.. was really excited for it.. even though before the concert we'll have shooting in Bukit Jalil, i can't wait for the day... 320 is one of the biggest day in my life.. 

well two weeks before the concert i was informed to replace one of the member for a dance..i joined their crew but this dance they practice it before i joined.. so i was busy memorizing the steps.. improving it.. and the positions.. i got two different performances on different day where i have to learn new steps...

after the performances... i tot i finally got chance to memorize all the lyrics.. fan chants.. and make it Suju week.. after few days.. i found out that i have to replace another member who couldn't make it for a shooting..(it's for a Korean station called Arirang who aimed for international viewers.. they hope to shoot about how malaysians like kpop..) then i have to memorize new positions... i don't know why but i was unhappy for that shooting... i don't want anything to disturb me on that day... it's for super junior alone.. anyway no choice so we have to shoot.. to think on bright side.. we appeared and dance in international station..

on friday.. since i'm going to stay over in my friend's house.. and my mum going up to genting in the morning.. so i followed my friends which are the fans club committee members to KLIA to "pick" SJ.. i want to gain experience and see how it's like.. haha we gathered in monorail and go to one of my friend's house becaue her father is fetching us to KLIA (so good~~~) SJ arrived at 4.30pm... we arrived in KLIA around 2... because my friends are mostly fans club committee and for this concert... they combined with other fans clubs in Malaysia and Singapore.. so they have to gather everyone... briefing.. and discuss what to do... the committee and the coordinator have their own tag.. which are meant to protect SJ from the fans.. so they have to stand in front and don't allow the fans to push or pull SJ.. bcoz i was there so they put me as coordinator.. and we were placed in different places so in every venue there are coordinators... i choose the lift... less crowd... hehe 

we were busy chit chatting beside the lift and i become the lift girl.. because the tourists have luggage bags so they couldn't hold the button when they walk in.. then i'll hold the door for them.. after a while.. i even say "welcome and enjoy in malaysia" to most of the tourists... in my super junior fans club's shirt... kakaka...

then we got some news from other forum's member that SJ might use VIP lane..because we still don't see any guards or security around us.. i seriously have no feeling even i don't get to see them.. bcoz i'm going to their concert... so i was thinking if i get to see them today.. it's a bonus.. and none of us know where is the VIP lane.. around 4.15pm.. two air stewardess passed by and asked us who are we waiting for.. i chatted with them.. i told them we are waiting for SJ.. one of them know SJ and told me her sister love them.. she hope we could take more pics and tag her in facebook.. haha i showed her a disappointed face and said maybe we don't get to see them... and i asked her where is the VIP lane.. both of them look confused.. and they said maybe at level 5? which is the departure hall... but they are not sure.. cause very few VIP will use that lane... so she said maybe u can try your luck there... two of the members ran up to check.. and one of the member who just landed down from another country said SJ landed already.. so we didnt expect to see them already.. after a while my friend called and asked us to go up.. but they are not sure bout it.. they just saw polices there.. 

so we walked up.. we couldn't call others or spread the news cause all of us are not sure... once we walked up.. we saw something that we can't

 stop laughing... got 4 alphard vans/cars parking there.. with two polices.. and AND got paper stated "artist 1, artist 2, artist 3 and artist 4" in front of the cars.. eh come on la..if u want to make it low profile.. while tells everyone that cars are for artists.. and which group will need four vans to fit in the members.. by the time we confirm.. 

after 5 minutes.. we heard screaming already.. they are here!!! at first we (four videographers) said we'll each take one car... i want car 2.. so i walked there.. then i saw them.. and whole group of fans and security..

 somehow i felt the fans are scary so i moved away from car 2 when they come nearer.. yes i moved further from SJ... i moved backwards

 to car 3.. i got crowd phobia.. so i moved to car 4.. away from the crowd.. but i get to see SJ cause they are so fair.. tall and outstanding.. akakaka.. and the security somehow love to bully me.. the one that didn't even scream or push.. just standing there with my camera.. preparing to record.. but the korean guards keep pushing my hands and ask me not to record.. well EVERYONE besides me are recording~ why u only bully me??? i just keep raising my hands once they push my hands... and one of the girl(staff) cover my camera with her hands.. so my videos can only see the floor.. and her hand.. next time i should scream like a crazy fans so that they won't bully me... :(

before the other SJ members walk to the car.. 

i feel my phone vibrating.. then i realized.. i actually need to run back to my friend's car.. but behind me were all the fans so i couldn't move.. i was so stupid enough to push the guard's hand and run towards my friends car... at the same time there were SJ members walking into the car.. but i wasn't running towards them.. i ran straight.. the members must be thinking.. this girl don't like us?? i felt so sorry for them.. while i was running.. i actually don't remember which is my friend's car.. but i just keep running straight.. and i afraid to cross the road because i afraid SJ's car will knock on me.. i know i think a lot when i was running.. but i'm just weird.. haha.. then i heard lots of people screaming my name.. so i saw my friends waiting in the car and i ran towards them... haha.. once i get into the car.. SJ car moved in front of us.. so we get to follow them.. haha it's so exciting actually.. good experience..

on the highway.. polices lead the cars and the guards followed at the back.. and we followed behind.. we realized not only us following them.. there were other fans.. one from singapore.. and they are very dangerous.. they always use the right lane to be beside SJ cars and tried to go near them... we were so worried.. luckily the guard keep them away from SJ.. then the guard make us to the right lane as well.. we couldn't drive too slow so we passed by their cars..and i gave them a very funny face because i saw black mirror... "ceh.. why cannot see one :(" then i realized.. shit.. they can see me even though i can't see them.. haih~~~ 

we are in front of them after a while... but suddenly.. Rain~~~ it's really heavy rain so we decided not to follow already.. we don't want ourself to be in danger and put them into danger as well... we head straight to star hill because we will h

ave shooting in Pavilion later.. while we were walking to pavilion... we heard screaming from a hotel.. of course.. all of us ran there.. we saw guards around and the four alphard.. kakaka.. we really got fate with them.. i walked to the back of the van.. and chat with the guard.. (PR ma..) and the guard somehow trust me.. so he didn't block me and even allow me to put my hand on his shoulder while recording.. hahaha... they came out after 5 minutes.. and the fans keep pu

shing.. i afraid the fans will hurt each other so i was shouting "don't push don't push" and some of them saw my coordinator pass.. they believe that i'm their coordinator... SJ members were so near to me.. and i didn't scream as usual.. cause everyone were screaming.. it's so loud.. i'm only used to scream in concert.. hahhaah and when they're far.. how can u scream so loud when someone is near to u? i can't...

anyway.. saw them for 2 minutes... after they get into the car.. i was busy pulling fans to stay away from the cars cause i afraid their feets will kena from the tyre.. i'm weird yes i know...

haha then we walked to pavilion in a happy mode..we tot fo going to dinner first but the director want us to shoot first then they will rush to bukit jalil to shoot SJ's rehearsal..in this shooting.. we have to pretend to be Speedy's customers and we are interested in the korean albums.. we'll take a look and discuss bout it... for this simple scene.. we shoot for 20 minutes.. we discuss bout those albums for 15 minutes.. u can see us like "wah super junior new album.. wah big bang.. got new songs in it.. wah got wonder girls album..." 

then because i took off my MYSJ shirt so the director asked me to be the customer and interviewed me.. basically i was lying all the time... hahhaa like "how often u come to speedy? how many korean albums u have at home.." even though director said don't always talk about SJ only.. but i just can't help relate all the questions to them.. hahaha.. 

and we went dinner after that.. chit chatted and really enjoyed it..

we head back to own's house after dinner.. i followed my friend back to her house...we discussed bout the experience and facebook till 2am and i was too sleepy.. so i sleep first.. end of the day~~~

100th Days

100th days of what you may ask but only certain people will understand what this mean. 

it's already 100th days since the day you stepped into the airport and take the flight back to seattle... i still remember watching the video where you walked with your head down... photos that shows your face with lots of worries... it seems like you are back to your old life now in a place you are comfortable with, with people that you love and doing the things that you enjoyed.. i'm happy for you of course but please don't forget, there are people waiting for you to come back... no matter how long it takes.. u are too good to disappear.. tired of waiting? it will never happen... 

Please think of us and your brothers sometimes while you are enjoying your life in the other side.. but no matter how... if you are happy.. i think everyone will be happy... i miss your laughter and your tiny eyes when you smile... Take care and God bless.... 

 Christy :)

 

 

Congratulations on your C! You've done very well throughout the course. You scored a 'C' for both your first and third assignments with a distinction for your second assignment. When all three were calculated your total came upto only a few points below a 'D'. Your assignments moderated at UniSA also returned as satisfactory for a 'C'. A 'C' is a good grade and you should be proud of yourself for all the effort you put into your work.

 

 

Happy Holidays.

this is the response from my lecturer

C is not a good grade for me especially in a subject that i supposed to do better... i scored a C on my video assignment? why? honestly why!! done very well? then i supposed my grades should be higher... maybe some of u might think C is good enough but it's not good in a subject that i got the most confidence... only few points below a D?? why can't u just give me a D??? i can't believe this.. still cannot.. although i recheck my result again and again.. i seriosuly think they put the wrong grades under the wrong subject.. 

Grades are not great

i cna't believe what i saw just now!!! argh~~~ how can i get a C for my fav and most confident subject! a freaking CCCCCCCCCCCCCCC!!! what's wrong... she told me i got D for my flahs... does that mean my video drag my marks down? i followed everything she said!!! somehow the assignemnt that i put the most hope and effort in lower down my grades!! i don't start an assignment 2 weeks before the due date! i double checked it everyday!! just to make sure my video is perfect!! what is wrong!!!!! 

i don't care bout other assignments cause i'm glad that i passed... and somehow for International Media Communication which i always put on my mp3 in the class wihtout listening to the lectures and doesn't care much about the world .... i got Distinction ... what the HELLLLLLLLL!!!!! i'm seriously upset right now that i couldn't get high marks on the subject that i supposed to do well... the level of upset surpass the level of happiness for getting D... i want the D to be put in IFTP... not IMC... maybe with the help of vanessa i get an idea to critique about the article but somehow i dont think i deserve a D... are u SERIOUS!!! 

honestly i was dreaming to get a HD for this subject.. because that's what i want to do for my future.. tv and film production... then i realized australia won't give u HD... so i really expect to get a D... it's not like other assignments lower down my marks.. i got D in flahs... it's the final assignment which i really put all my effort in... WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One Population One World

Upcoming Events by CreatiVision

Theme: One Population, One World
Date: 31 December 2009
Time: after 6pm - midnight
Venue: Padang Esplanade, Penang

The Official State New Year Countdown Concert cum 53rd Georgetown Day Celebration

Initiated by: Rainbow of Life Forces (ROLF) in support of United Nation Childrens' Fund (UNICEF)
The Largest Dance Class - A World Record Attempt in support of UNICEF on Dec. 30, 2009


Sources from: http://www.9-creativision.com/main.html


CreatiVision has appointed and confirmed Super Junior Malaysia Fans-site (MYSJ) as the official dance instructor for 1 Population 1 World campaign.

please support this event and have party together for good cause!!! Let's go party!! in Penang!! Spread this news please!!

video will be upload soon for you to learn the dance... msg me if you want to learn it personally...

anticipation

since last week when i found out the date that my fave band having concert in Bangkok next month.. i really have the feelings to go.. and i always want to go to Bangkok because i never been there before.. then i started to ask around whether are they interested to go together.. they didn't reject me and say will consider bout it.. i was so excited... i started to do research..where is the stadium... hotels that near the stadium... how to get there.. what to eat.. where to go.. what attractions.. 

after doing so many research i really want to go so badly.. of course 50% is because SJ is not coming to malaysia for concert and next year... they might disband... of course it's not confirmed but their contract is almost expired.. so i afraid if i dont get to watch their concert.. i will really regret... 

another 50% is because i want to shop and visit Bangkok with my best friends... my mood went up after looking for so many hotels... attractions... everything seems so good.. safari world.. flea market... 

suddenly just now i was thinking... what if after i plan everything but my friends told me they cant go with me.. then i'll really fall into hell... of course this post is not to push any of you that i invited but i was just thinking.... 

should i not get so excited first before everything is confirm? the more i expect the more i'll be disappoint after that... i've spent so much time on this trip but this is my first time planning a trip.. especially with friends.. i can totally understand my family's worries.. i want to bring my mum along.. i don't mind her following but she'll be bored.. my aunts couldn't follow... my dad is working... my brother is working... so she refused to go with my friends... 

out of sudden all i become really emo and started to think.. maybe all the imaginations will not appear in real life... maybe the trip wouldn't exist.. who knows.. God! i'll leave it to You of course because You already planned everything in my life..